Enjoy The Journey

I've been so stressed for so long and I have been living my life on auto-pilot. I've had zero routine. Wake up late cause I have nothing to look forward to, dread going to work, but do it anyway, come home, homeschool, eat, clean, shower, sleep, repeat. Monday-Sunday. No breaks. No time-off. No reset. 

My anxiety is debilitating. I've been greatly overwhelmed since I became a single mother in 2020, but I love being a single woman, so I wouldn't change it for the world, however, I can't take another day living the same way. Something HAS to change, so I picked up a few books to dive into - The Happiness Project, Let That Shit Go, and The Secret. Then, I made a plan to create healthier habits BEFORE the New Year, so I can spend the New Year focusing on MY own happiness project.

My mornings start early, with morning affirmations, meditation, high frequency music, yoga, and a light healthy breakfast. Mid-mornings consist of work - homeschooling and marketing. Afternoons are for creating, whatever our hearts desire. Evenings are for relaxing and enjoying - a warm meal, our favorite tv shows, each others company, a long bath, a good book wrapping up each and everyday with visualization and nightly affirmations. 

I learned to accept that I'm different - a free spirit, and that strict routine isn't for me, and I function better when I leave myself room to accommodate my ADHD brain. 

I'm dedicating my time and energy to things that fulfill me, starting with transitioning to a healthier, more natural, non-toxic lifestyle. I'm going to spend more time doing things I enjoy - reading, writing, dancing, singing, blogging, podcasting. I will learn to love motherhood, because I've never experienced motherhood the way I've always wanted to. It's always been a stressor, as a single mother. I will scale my business again to a 6 figure income, so I don't spend 2025 trading my time for money and being absolutely miserable like I did the past 3 years.

While I'm at it, I'm going to change the world, even if it's just for one person, except I'm going to do it different than I had attempted to in the past. I've always been an asset to the people around me, but I recognized at some point that I vibrate at a higher frequency than those I surround myself with, which leaves me to see a potential in them that they don't see and likely wont ever exist. I've found that strangers are so much more receptive to me and what I have to offer than my friends and family, which is why I cut ties with nearly everyone I previously surrounded myself with and decided to see how many lives of strangers I can change when I'm not devoting all my time and energy to the people that I love who don't reciprocate that appreciation or care.

I have known what I'm on this earth to do for several years. Helping people is my passion and changing lives is my purpose. Starting with my own. 

Here's to filling my cup so it can flow into others.